The last bell of the train fastened my pace as I sprinted towards the train. Tears were blinding my eyes.I realized that I was squeezing kicking and hurting everyone and everything standing on my way. I finally jumped into that train. Everything inside was dark, just like my life. My body was shaking vigorously. My mind was filled with fear, hatred and disgust. I had lived 2 years with a man who was cheating on me. "Did he ever loved me?", I wondered. I wanted to hug my mother and cry my heart out.As the train halted at some station, I realized that somebody had offered me their seat to sit. I was too tired, tired of everything that was happening in my life. I closed my eyes. My mind was bustling with memories of our time spent together. "He was so caring, so loving and such a good listener before marriage. I wish he hadn't changed so much after marriage. He was my only best friend since college days. I was so foolish to have relied on him always. ", I cringed.

I reached home the next day and smothered my mother with my hug. My mother was worried. She was perplexed and nervous. She kept asking me why I was crying. But, I couldn't utter a word. I was breathless and exhausted. I lay down on my mother's lap and closed my eyes.

The phone beeped. A SMS got delivered:
"Hi baby. Miss you so much. Love you my baby."

The phone beeped again. Another SMS got delivered:

"Sweet heart...What are you doing?. Can I call you now?"

The phone bell started ringing. I answered the call.

"Hello..."
"Hello baby. What were you doing? I texted you but you didn't reply. I miss you so much baby"
"I was in kitchen. I was helping mother with dinner. I'm sorry dear, I didn't hear the phone ringing",I replied
" I'm craving for you dear.I want you soon with me. Come to me soon."
"Sure. I will join u shortly in your dreams",I giggled.
"I miss your sound, your smile, your eyes, your lips ,your cheeks,.........I cant bear this. I can't live without you ...I need you....Oh my baby..I will die without u....."he sighed.
"Don't worry sweet heart, it's a matter of few days and then we will be together. I will be yours forever.We will be together and you will not have to miss me", I consoled him.

Tears rolled down my eyes when I thought of our old days and our old conversations. I wondered what had happened to our conversations.We told so many things to each other. We discussed everything from our personal lives to the climate. We had endless discussions. After few years of marriage, there were hardly few conversations.
"May be I'm not good enough for conversations anymore", I thought.
I took my phone to check for any messages or phone calls from my husband. There were no calls. I switched on my mobile data to check if he had sent any chat messages. I opened my e-mail account to check for his mails and chats, just in case if he had sent any messages there. I refreshed twice. No new mails. I typed his name to see the list of mails he had sent. There were thousands of emails that we had sent to each other over the years of our relation.
I opened an old e-mail. He had sent that e-mail as a reply to one of my mails. He had shifted to Mumbai after finding a new job when he had sent that e-mail.

Hey sweetie,
Till now, I didn't know that writing mails to you would be so much of fun....
I am so happy to write to you and reply for to your mails.... its a wonderful thing....
It's good to hear that you have less work load at office now. At least, you now have lot of time to think about me.(I know you are blushing)
Also,use your time for some hobbies and have a wonderful time. Trust me,you will miss me lesser.
I don't want to even talk about how much I am missing you my dear. It's painful- being away from you.I'm trying very hard to divert my pain by focusing on my new job. My new job is really tough. It's really difficult to manage the staff over here. They have very high expectations. I need to chalk out new strategies to handle these people.

I wish our parents soon decide about our marriage. Then you will be here with me and we can spend so much time together. You don't know how much happy and relaxed I will be if you are with me.

I love u and love u lots and lots.......
Your baby.

"Why doesn't he calls me, messages me or send me mails anymore", I pondered.
My mother told me to freshen up while she made a cup of tea for me. I stood under the shower till my mother panicked and banged on the door.
I opened the door and faintly smiled at my mother.
"I'm okay mom. I just need some more time. Don't worry about me. I can handle this", I pacified her.
She handed me the cup of tea. She looked worried. But she somehow managed to leave me alone so that I could get my own space. I kept the tea aside and looked into the mirror. I noticed that my eyes were swollen, my hair had started graying, there were few streaks of wrinkles at the corner of my eyes. I was looking old. The charm, the youthfulness, the beauty -it was all gone or that was what I probably thought. I was trying to find the signs of failure within me.
"What else could be the reason- I must have changed", I blamed myself.
"No..it's him not me. He is responsible for cheating. He has changed. He doesn't want me anymore...", I gulped my tears.
I was raging with anger when I noticed my father coming into my room. My mother must have informed him about my ordeal.He took me in his arms, hugged me and kissed me on my forehead. Meanwhile, my mother also joined us.
"It's okay dear. Whatever you're going through. Everything is going to be alright", my dad consoled me.
" Oh dad, I love you and mom so much. You both have been so kind to me. You know me so well that you decided not to bother me. I know you both have lots of doubts and queries and I will tell you everything", I smiled.
"Mom-dad, I know this was a marriage of my own choice and I still cherish my decision to marry him. He was the only man I loved and wanted to spend my whole life with. Everything was perfect. Our relationship, our marriage and everything else. It was very late by the time I discovered something about him. He was no longer interested in talking to me or even looking at me. Sometimes, I think that I might be responsible for the changes that happened over the years. Sometimes, I feel he is to be blamed for the changes. I think he has changed a lot after marriage. He isn't the same anymore" I paused.
" Ever since I shifted to Mumbai with him, I have been struggling each and every day. I have been struggling to learn and make dishes which he loves, that too the way his mother cooks. I have been struggling to learn a new language, to make new friends so that I don't feel alone when is away. I have been struggling to get a new job & to revive my career. It wasn't so easy for me to adjust to a totally new life. I managed during the day time. I longed for his presence in the evenings. I longed for his warmth in the night.But...", I sighed.
"But, that is how life changes after marriage my child. You have to adjust yourself to whatever life presents to you. You shouldn't expect too much. Your husband toils for your future. You should provide him with love, support and care. It's your duty towards him", my mother explained.
"I agree with you mother. But doesn't he have duty towards me too. Is it right for him to cheat on me?", I questioned her.
My parents were shocked to hear this. They could not imagine that their son-in- law lacked fidelity. That was the last thing they could associate their son-in-law with. According to them he was an extremely sweet, talented and kind hear ted man. They always felt that I made the most perfect decision by marrying him.
"Is he having an extra-marital affair? With whom? Did you find out?, my dad panicked.
"Yes dad. He is having an extra marital affair.What all names should I share with you dad and mom. His television, his mobile phones, his laptop and his X box video game console." I winced.
"Are... are you insane? You just scared the hell out of us. It is very common these days. Everyone does that.What's wrong in doing that? He works hard the whole day. He deserves little entertainment. You shouldn't have left home and come here for such a silly reason. He must be so hurt that you left him over such a silly issue. I will call him and apologize. You must go back to him tomorrow itself and apologize to him" my dad said furiously.
" Dad. I know he needs rest. I know he needs entertainment. I appreciate with my whole heart that he struggles the whole day for our future. He deserves television, mobile phones, laptops, video games and everything that makes him happy. I too want his happiness.
But,what about me? Don't I deserve some of his time. That is the only happiness in my life- the time spent with him. Don't I deserve happiness too? I tried everything to lure him so that he spends more time with me. But, his love for these gadgets is more successful than any of my tactics to lure him.
His eyes are always fixed on television. My words goes unnoticed when he watches a movie on television. His mobile phone sleeps with us on our bed. It is the last thing he wants to see before he closes his eyes and first thing that he wants to see when he opens his eyes in the morning. When he is playing X box,I don't even exist in that house.
There are days when I eagerly wait for him to taste his favorite dish. There are days when I'm ill and want his care and warmth. It is not very pleasant to be ignored again and again by someone you love so much. It hurts very badly" I sobbed.

MORAL OF THE STORY:
Guys, it sounds very stupid. But we all are having extra-marital affairs with our phones, televisions, laptops and even office work. Stop cheating and hurting your loved ones.
There is someone at home waiting for your warm hug. There is someone waiting for your phone call just to hear your voice. There is someone who wants you to just look at them and smile. There is someone who wants to hold your hands and play with you. There is someone who wants you and nothing else.
Spend your time with your loved ones. As you grow old, the memories of these time spent with your loved ones will matter more than the hours spent at office or the number of likes for a picture uploaded or the score of video game.