15 December 2005 - Our love story

Anu is my second cousin. He's my aunt's (dad's sister) son. We both lived in two different states. I lived in Maharashtra and he lived in Kerala .We were united only during holidays, that too, for a day or two. The distance and the amount of time spent together didn't matter to us. We were thick friends. As we grew old, we realized that our friendship blossomed into love. Our eyes confessed love each time we looked at each other. However, our tongues didn't have the courage to mutter those beautiful words.For many years, we couldn't meet or communicate.

Once we were in college, I chanced upon his mobile number. I texted him my mobile number. We started texting and speaking on phone. Through our conversations, we both knew that we both loved each other very much.However, he wasn't ready to admit that. He always claimed that I was his best friend. Each time he insisted that it's just friendship, I hinted it's beyond friendship.I hoped one day he will realize that it's love and love only.

His mobile company had activated free caller tunes for him. It was a beautiful and romantic tamil song,"Suttum vizhi sudare...". Each time I heard that song, I felt the urge to tell him how much I loved him. I was in love with the song and it had become my favorite song.

One winter morning, when I and my friends were sitting in our classroom, I asked them whether I should propose him.

"Yes,you should,"my bestie smiled.

Her smile brought a new bout of confidence within me. I immediately called him from my classroom.

My favorite song began playing,"Suttum vizhi sudare.."

"Hello "he answered.

"Hello.Where are you? Are you free now", I asked.

"Yes. I'm free now. What happened?",he asked curiously.

"I wanted to tell you something.... Actually, I think, I love you", I uttered those beautiful words.

"Yes. I love you too, like my best friend", he said.

"I love you more than that", I expressed with clarity.

"What??? Are you serious?",he thought I was joking.

"Yes. I love you. I love you since last 8 years", I said evidently.

"8 years...?? I don't believe you. I'm not interested in love affairs and all", he said furiously.

"Yes... I love you since childhood. It's been 8 years as far as I remember. Let me tell you that I'm not interested in having an affair or relationship with you. If my aim was to have a boyfriend, there are plenty of boys in my class, my college and around me.I do not want a boyfriend. ....You always insisted that I'm your best friend. But I think otherwise, I love you. I wanted to let you know that. I didn't want to hide my feelings from you. I felt I was cheating you by keeping you in dark about my real feelings. That is the only reason I proposed to you. I just want you to know that I love you. that's it!!!", I disconnected the call.

Our lectures had started. He kept calling back but I was unable to attend his calls. I prayed that the lectures ended soon. Finally, during the break, I called him back. My favorite song began to play,"Suttum vizhi sudaare..".

"Hello", he answered.

"I'm sorry. I was in classroom attending lectures. So, I could not attend your calls",I apologized.

"It's okay. I thought a lot about what you told me. I just want to tell you one thing that when my parents will start looking for a partner for me , you will be my first choice",he said.
I never anticipated an answer from him. But he indirectly proposed marriage to me. I was surprised and emotional.
It was the most beautiful day in my life.
15 December 2005

He kept his promise and married me 3 years back.

TODAY AS WE COMPLETE A DECADE OF LOVE, I STRONGLY RECOMMEND TO EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS TO THE ONE WHOM YOU LOVE.